Help yourself
When you find yourself wishing someone else would give you something or believing they should be a certain way, this is your mind letting you know how to help yourself.
Instead of thinking they should do something nice for you or they should forgive you, this is your signal for you to do something nice for you and for you to forgive you.
We can only be helped by others to the extent we are willing to help ourselves. Where is it time to turn the question to yourself?