Play the game
If there is something you want that feels sticky or tricky, you probably only want it because you believe it will bring you something you perceive as good.
If that’s the case, instead of making it something you have to do, make it a game. We have much more success with things that we enjoy doing. Also, could it be possible that having fun with the way you do it actually opens up some of what you are seeking from the outcome?
Where could you play the game with curiosity and play instead of forcing yourself to trudge down the path?