Often, we think we have decided to do or be something when what we have done is chosen to do it until it becomes too hard or uncomfortable.
The power of a decision is that we cut off the other option. We say that being the other way is no longer even an option. Finishing the project is not an option; only finishing is. Staying resentful is no longer an option; only forgiving and staying connected to source is. Having a stressful relationship with time or money is no longer an option; only a relationship of creativity, ease, and power is.
Where is it time for you to make a true decision? And what actions would you need to take if you did? Again, your decision will open up the pathway, not your preference.